I think this is the first time I’m ever going to miss a month. I’m usually over and tired the previous month, excited to start a new with a fresh slate. But I’m a bit sad to see February go, and I don’t think I’m all that ready for March to come.
It seems like everything’s going by too quickly.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m welcoming March in with open arms, but I do wish February was longer than just a measly 28 days.
Now that February’s gone, I figured it’s as good a time as any to reflect on everything I’ve learned and done this month. I’ll be frank, it wasn’t so much an interesting month as it was a peaceful month.
February gave me a chance to grow and do a bit of soul searching. It was one of those months where I really felt myself growing into the person I’m supposed to be; I finally became more me than I had been for a while now.
I’ve come to terms with a lot of aspects of my life that I’ve always either pushed away or suppressed, which I’m beyond grateful for. It’s been a big work-in-progress to fully accept and own every aspect of myself—the good and the bad (and gosh. I discovered a lot of bad)—instead of hiding myself away or putting on a façade.
These past few weeks, I’ve started to write poetry again (I’m grossly rusty though) and rediscovered my love for the written word.
I’ve spent more time with friends and focused on my relationships with others instead of taking it for granted.
And I stopped pushing myself too hard, which is something I’m really proud of. I’m still as busy as ever, but I’m taking it easy, if that makes any sense. February was my self-care month and I didn’t push myself to do things I didn’t—or couldn’t—want to do. And I really hope this carries over into March.
I’m on my way to truly finding out who I’m meant to be and what I’m supposed to do. It’s absolutely thrilling.
Because I’m essentially stuck in the routine of going to class, studying, sleeping, and then repeating, I’m not a particularly wild person. I wish I had more adventures and cool experiences, but life just gets in the way, you know? In January, I wanted to make February the month of wild and fun life experiences, but that didn’t really happen.
Despite that, I still had some fun moment in February:
I (finally) took a trip to see my boyfriend for his birthday. For the past year and a half we’ve been doing long distance, he’s always travelled to see me. This February, I took the plunge and bought bus tickets on a whim and took a three hour bus ride by myself to see him.
I joined a new organization! I actually got the call that I was accepted into the organization while I was on my trip to see my boyfriend. It’s been a hectic month because of this, but so rewarding.
I finished training at my local Crisis Center. Yesterday was actually the last day of my training, which I’m beyond glad for. It’s been so busy over at my end because of my eight-hours-a-week training, and so emotionally challenging. I wanted to quit a few times throughout the past six weeks of training, I’ll admit. But I’m so glad I stuck through it until the end.
I’m doing well on my classes! I had two exams this past month, in Biology 2 and Organic Chemistry 1. My last semester was really rough and I was definitely struggling through all my classes, so it’s such a huge relief to finally be doing okay. I got an 86 in Biology (which I was so nervous for! I didn’t have a lot of time to study because of said trip to see my boyfriend haha) and an 88 in Organic Chemistry. I’m so glad to have finally found out the best way to study and finally be doing well.
I messed up this month. I didn’t read a single book—I didn’t even try.
Thinking back, there have definitely been times when I could have picked up a book to read to pass the time, but instead turned to my phone. Social media is getting too addicting, but scrolling through cat pictures and food videos is just too mind-numbingly pleasing.
It’s an absolute bummer, but I suppose March is here so I can redeem myself.
- The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern
- Dark Places by Gillian Flynn
- One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
I definitely slacked in February and didn’t really pay attention to this blog. In the past month, I only published two posts for the whole month! I took a long break in between January and February to collect myself, so I was absent for a good two and half weeks.
My February Posts
- Managing Commitments: A Guide for the Over-Involved College Student — For all you busy bees like me, this one is for you.
- A Collegiate’s Guide to Cheap (But Fun) Dates — My contribution to Valentine’s Day in the blogging world!
I’m determined: March is going to be a good blogging month. If you’re following this blog’s Facebook page (Which you should! We can all be friends haha) you’ll know that I’ve made the decision to do BEDIM this month, or Blog Every Day in March.
Blog. Every day. Yep, every single day.
I’ve thought about doing this for so long now (well, as long as I’ve had this blog) and it’s finally going to happen! So get ready for a new post every day for the next 31 days! I’m trying to get more comfortable in expressing myself, so I want to incorporate more personal posts within my usual college advice ones, but we’ll see how that works out. Hopefully I can maintain my level of quality while maximizing the quantity of my blog posts!
Goodbye February, Hello March
So with this last blog post, I bid February goodbye. I learned a lot in the past month, about myself and in organic chemistry. But I can’t wait to see what will happen in March.
How about you– how was your February?